... As I embark on this journey into photographing others, and selling prints, I am struggling to keep up any amount of confidence...
In my mind I am calling myself... a joke, a fraud, an idiot...
I am saying things to myself like, who would want you to take photos of their kids, you can't talk in front of people, you aren't creative enough and YOU are going to charge... who do you think you are...
why is this so hard. some people jump right into this, but I am terrified, and not just of what others might say but of the huge possibility of failure.
I know that what I am doing is so low key... but to me, this is huge.
I guess I thought I needed to take the time to give myself credit for how far I HAVE come... and to remind you to do the same.
I started out, 2 years ago, liking to take pictures... but not knowing anything about it. I took pictures of my kids mostly... and didn't pay any attention to the sun or to the color casts around us. I didn't think about depth of field or that a flash makes a photo look flat. I didn't even know what photoshop was and I had NO grasp of what it meant to get sun flare or ambient light. I didn't see the point in photographing anything but people, and I thought the only way to get a 'good' shot was to do so on a background in a studio set up.
Fast forward to today and I have grasped the concept of shooting with the sun to your back, using fill flash when necessary, finding a shady spot to shoot your subjects and keeping your ISO as low as possible to avoid grain. I know the basic idea behind catching sunflare and I enjoy indulging in it often. I think about DOF constantly. And my camera is always just an arms length away.
I have a basic knowledge of PS and LR and I know the elements of a photo to enhance and what to minimize. I know the best angle to shoot children at and I appreciate still life photography.
I see a 'good' shot, as one that is natural, whimsical and real... but technically sound. I know that editing can overwhelm a photo and that it's all about the eyes... and NOT overdoing it.
I see bokeh all around me and see shots before they are taken. I am getting more good shots than bad and my focus is getting better daily.
Now... it sounds like I just got a bit carried away... but there is a whole bevy of things that I still need to learn and even more that I need to keep practicing. I know that the "people skills" will come in time and that my portfolio will grow if I just let myself take jobs.
I am not the best... and truthfully, I NEVER will be... but if I don't believe in my potential, how in the world can I expect anyone else too.
I can tell this will be a struggle for me, but I am so excited...
I have a newborn shoot tomorrow, a birthday party I'm shooting Sunday and a 3 year old on Monday and if I am not mistaken a 2 year old and 7 year old on Thursday... not all of these will earn me money (since they are friends and family) but the experience will be good!