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creekin'

i blew off laundry in favor of something much more stimulating... and afternoon in the creek with the bebes...
with lydia starting kindy soon, i feel like it's my duty to embrace these last weeks... with much vigor.

morning

in the morning... that's the time i like the best.

the time when it's quite, still and fresh.
today i got to spend that time in the hay field at mom and dad's.

...and i thought i would share some of the fun we had...

The Other Mother : My Blessing of a Mother in Law

It's rare.
She's rare.

Or maybe, out of common ground, we were always destined to be close.

I think God gives you, if you'll have it, the advice and life experience of 2 mothers. One who fights for your side and one who fights for her son's. She will help you see the vulnerability in his choices, she will help you understand his upbringing and help you see life from a new perspective.

Sheila is one of those people that loves her family. And not just loves them a little... but they are her world, and her reason.
We are very much alike in that... both of us have small worlds.
She is a strong woman of God and she is soft in her guidance and advice.

She remembers the struggle of children close together in age and she is supportive and understanding of my efforts.

I never feel judgment and I always know she is there.

She has taught me so much...

Persevering. Serving. The Benefits of a Faithful Heart. and Willpower. She has taught me that "my way" is not always the best way... and when I listen, she knows so much. I am lucky to have her advice... blessed to have her discernment in my corner.

Sheila is someone I am proud to have in my life. Proud to call Mom and proud to learn from. And on this day, her birthday... I want her to know the gift she has been and continues to be.

Thank you for helping me, helping me live and live well... I love you.

unsure

everyday
every single day
i am faced with a struggle. the struggle to maintain the kindness i know is right, maintain self aware and producitve behavior, to keep myself reminded of the wonder in life and my importance within the circle.

things have been busy here. a little to busy to take the time to make those distinctions. i think i have been neglectful of reminding myself.

or even noticing it when it's right in front of me.

what a july we have had!

fireworks...
picnics...
family and friends...
photo shoots...
playgrounds...
pool parties...
lots of catching up with loved ones and falling behind on house work.

I love cycle and I hate it.
I feel like there are so many people i need to reach out to, but short of a smile and hello i don't know how.

it's odd because within this whirlwind I have felt so much.
connected...
disconnected...
nervous...
excited...
hopeful...
and helpless.

sometimes, all at once.

I feel like i am loosing my grip on everything... and at the same time, I am so ready to watch it soar.

i crave quiet
but it's so lonely there...
i crave uninterrupted laughter...
but life is needing me...

i think i am here to say... goodbye, for a while... i need to sort out so much...